Romance

okayyyyy.... Ive never been the best at like Romance or anything like that and the one time I got close to having a GF it got fucked up cause she cheated on me. Ill just tell the whole story from the beginning. So me and this girl met through a mutual friend (call him N and the girl E)'

So me and E started talking a lot more, LIKE A LOT, eventually it got to the point that we were sleep calling and texting and hanging out everyday for like 2 months right... and so me and E went to different places a lot together, like malls movies, and on record store day  and we hung out for like 18 hours straight that day... any who.. eventually in May of this year (we had been friends since January and actually talking since February) she started to distance herself from me which was very weird.... (okay another thing is we never technically dated and stuff... we just didnt have a label for it but she considers me an ex so i am too) i learned that she was hanging out with this guy(call him A) and turns out HE WAS HER EX!?!?!?!? and so on May 9th i tell her my feelings and stuff and how i like her, then she says she likes A now and how shes "always been drawn to him"(real quote) so im upset because im surprised that she can throw away her feelings in just an instant. okay then after that i say "I want to be friends still but i dont want to talk until im over my feelings for you" then i unfriend her and all that jazz... that weekend im fricken depressed as shit crying and stuff. Then the monday we go back to school(the 12th of may) we have our AP SEMINAR AP EXAM... so i bombed that and also that same day my friend C texts me saying hes been TALKING TO HER and so basicaly me and E started talking again and I took her back... then literally the next day is MY BIRTHDAY BTW. So we spend my bday together then on her birthday which is is 3 days after mine and on a friday we spend the entire day(after school) at the mall, and we hold hands there(for me thats a really big deal cause ive never done anything like that with ANYBODY before) and then she starts ACTING WEIRD AGAIN. saying her parents dont want her to see me anymore so we have to only speak online(weird) and so then i ask her out she says to give her time to think about it.... then a week goes by I ask if shes thought about it and she says she has, she then goes on to say how an onlineish relationship isnt going to work out and says shes sorry... then after a little desperation from me.... She says she was gonna block me, not because she was mad but because she didnt want me to be sad???(like what was the thinking behind that?) and then after all that im talking to N again about it... then i get this bombshell dropped on me.. SHE WAS TALKING TO ANOTHER GUY AFTER I TOOK HER BACK?!?!?!? thats why she was being weird again... anywho thats pretty much all of it but theres some details i left out cause i either forgot or wasnt important... anyway i like ranting so thats why i put it here instead of annoying my friends with it for the billionth time(srry irl freinds) but yah.... theres some more stuff i wanna say thats recent but ill say that in a different blog entry cause this ones long... any who GOODBYE NICHELINGSSSS!!!! mwah