Feeling like a financial burden to everyone

Full time student and trust me I'm trying to get employed but its hard. Im the middle child and the only one in university rn, my sister graduated and has a well paying job for the past 2 years and my other sibling is still too young for anything like that. 

Im currently the loser thats getting everything paid for by my parents to complete my education and lately theres been some talks about money. I cant help but feel pathetic because maybe for my younger sibling it makes sense but for me rn Im the only one creating more of a burden. 

Im not highly thought of in my family because of my struggles with health and in general I've had a lot of bullying happen over the years which I think just annoyed them more and now im here. It doesnt end honestly, existing for me is so humiliating sometimes.