disorganized attachment thoughts

the worst part about a disorganized attachment style is the way it switches so quickly. one minute it's obsession, and the next, withdrawal. both are bad, and both i try to stop. i've been working through my disorganized attachment workbook lately, to try and heal it. but lately i don't feel good about myself. i'm not good enough for it all, i can't do everything by myself, i don't have the time and i'm not a good person. i know there's no timeline for good mental health, but some days it feels like i can't go any further.

i don't know if i'm healing fast enough.