I Regret existing

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I rise to a world that had forgotten my name

A shadow stitched of borrowed shame

The sun continues to rise but not for me

It burns through a sky I am not able to see

Every breath feels like a debt borrowed

A whispered vow an unfulfilled curse

The stars had once invited  now they taunt they fade

Traces of dreams that light betrayed

I have walked through hope until it bled

Fed the ghosts that live in my head

Each heartbeat is resistance 

A funeral drum beating for my own life

If I could vanish quiet and untainted

Reverse the wounds erase the stage

Would the world lose its turn at all

Or would it only breathe  begin again?

But I am still half there half nowhere

Grafting the darkness where I am supposed to be

Not for glory not for healing 

Only to raise the question why I am still existing

If you hate me yet you should hate 

Because now there’s going to be a bullet in my head or maybe I should get a chair and put a rope around my neck and jump like I would jump out of a deck

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