I NEED OPINIONS.

Please help me out. Be honest. 

Okay so lately I've been figuring out my sexuality.... And tbh one thing I know, I like girls. But I also used to like boys, but I just lately can't really see a future with them... But it can also be because Ive grown up learning its okay to be gay ect. but that bi or pan does not exist. And lately one of my family members is being so homophobic. Like sometimes I can kinda understand it? Because so many people are gay and make problems that we are not accepted in the netherlands, wich is kinda true, but some gay people in the netherlands are just 'gay' to be a part of the community. But I don't know. Hating on people is smth that I really hate. But maybe I also started to like girls because boys always hurt my feelings. And I didn't grew up with a mother figure. But I do sometimes find man attractive. But not in a way I would want to date them. There are slight chances I like men. With woman I feel more safe. 

And also what I noticed from my past is that I was always friends with boys (not in a pick me way, I was bullied by some girls out of my class until a new girl came in my class and I became bsfs with her. And when I got in grade 5/6 the bullying stopped btw.) And I always was jealous when a boy out of my class had a girl liking him, especially when it was a girl that I thought was really pretty. I tried to get myself out of those thoughts with saying I liked one of the boys out of my class. But whenever I saw him, I only felt pure friendship, nothing more. 

So where I need help and opinions with..

Am I gay? Or am I just.. Idk overreacting?

xxx Hazel