keegs chronicles Ep 16 _ loneliness

Dairy entry 9:49PM 10/26/2025

Dear Diary, I stayed three hours past my shift today at work. I was supposed to get off at five, but I stayed until eight since we were short staffed. My feet hurt. Work was pretty good, and we stayed pretty busy all day. I ate a burger for dinner, and I started finishing my English paper (I have like two more paragraphs to write.) 

Last night after I wrote my entry I went and hung out with my friend, and we ordered Taco Bell and watched one of my favorite movies "The Help" That movie makes me cry every time I watch it I swear. In the middle of this movie, I started thinking about past relationships ect. 

I started to break down Infront of my friend. I was texting another friend about everything too. Both did their best to comfort me, but I ended up feeling really guilty. I always feel like my mental health takes a toll on my relationships. 

Now its the next day and I feel sad for a slightly different reason. I feel extremely lonely. I feel like I get labeled as the chaotic risky friend because of these past relationships and past mistakes. I just feel like nobody understands the depth of my soul. Who knows though maybe my perception of self stems from some sort of self-righteous psychosis lol.

I still struggle to feel feminine I hate my body. ANYWAYSSS time to finish that paper. 

with much love thanks , keegs.