Im at that stage where talking feelings with my parents is useless

You know when someone has said something in the past and you just cant shake it and you know that deep down they think this of you? 

I know what they think of me, no amount of "no thats not true youre smart" or "it's okay its not a big deal" helps anymore. I know how they see me and i know that deep down theyre exhausted by my feelings.