Overwhelmed

Feeling super overwhelmed by life. Whether its work or personal it feels like I have mile long list of things to do. Even when I get alot done, it feels like I barely did anything. 

Ofc usually I get stuck in a loop of procrastinating due to be overwhelmed and then ultimately do nothing. 

Something that's helped me lately at least has been challenging myself to think through the procrastination. What is the barrier/fear/issue that is causing me to not do the thing Im procrastinating on. Works sometimes, and at least as of recent I've been productive. At the same time when Im still overwhelmed I repeat in my head the quote from that one boondocks episode where Riley says to Grandad "What do you do when you can't do nothing, but there's nothing you can do?" And Grandad responds "You do what you can.". Sometimes life is overwhelming but I try to remind myself, humans aren't supposed to be doing everything on their own. Humans need other humans, and at least in more collectivist cultures like my own, you usually have a whole village where each individual has their specialized task. But in the states we are so hyper individualistic that we do everything on our own. And getting help to deal with that laundry list of to-dos costs money, and alot of it usually. 

But I think thats why Im trying to work hard or at least carve my path forward to making more money. The US is a late stage capitalist hellhole and the only way out to freedom is money. Im not a greed driven person, the only motivator for making more money to me at least is to make sure my family can live a better life, and I can buy my time back. But sometimes Im so tunnel vision on achieving this goal that I neglect everything else. Its hard to strike a balance. If I give my time to my personal to-dos then I feel like Im not doing enough at work. When I go all in at work then I feel like Im not doing enough for my family/myself. I keep telling myself I just work hard and reach x goal then I'll be able to maintain a work-life balance...but then it feels like that goal post keeps moving...