everyday blog ♡ 21.10.25 TUE

Sometimes someone presses on a wound that's a little too raw

and it's hard not to think,,

"maybe they didn't mean it."

【自分のプライド】

I'm sometimes impressed at my ability to run on solely face

Not in a literal way,, face as in pride.

I remember being 14 and having a long plastic tube inserted through the side of my neck

and I was fully awake during this procedure

and it felt terribly stuffy and it was uncomfortable 

and I was pretty nervous

but I had gotten used to things like this so I pretended I wasn't scared

I didn't like it when I couldn't handle things

I wanted to be the goodest there was.

Now I think,, there are so many things I can't handle,,

and I can't imagine being like that again.

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【たまご】

I was trying to refill the egg storage in the fridge earlier and I was transferring it from the carton to the case one broke

No biggy,, made steamed egg

Got kind of frustrated with the pan, the bowl I was using wouldn't fit,,

the gas stove wouldn't light on,,

the cling wrap was being difficult to work with

"That's not good you shouldn't do that."

There are  too many things wrong with my head, 
But that is where my brain and thinking and everything is,,

is the soul in the brain, too? i dunno.

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【キーボード】

The backspace key on this is far too close to the power button.

I use my pinky finger to backspace,,, and this sometimes results in me pressing the power button in the middle of a blog. 

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【gym行きたい】

I was supposed to go to the gym but my dad is sick so no one would drive me.

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【話すぎる】

i often think i talk too much 

i don't really know how true it is though, probably not as much as i think.

I was texting someone and told them, "i don't text you often because i don't want to disturb you' and they said that they're really not and would love to hear from me anytime.

Sometimes people do things and they dont realise they are doing that

sometimes i just. don't talk to anyone at all and don't engage with anything and i don't realise it until a week or two passes

sometimes people don't reply because they don't realise they're not replying

sometimes people talk a lot because they dont realise theyre talkin for so long

sometimes people dont talk at all because they dont think youre intrested in hearing

sometimes people say mean things because they dont realise its mean

and such and so.\

being a human is so weird.

okay by bye <3