biology will kill me

hello. I am not very happy in this moment. 

let me preface this blog by saying I am an EARLY CHILDHOD EDUCATION MAJOR. OK? I plan on teaching KINDERGARTENERS how to READ for the entirety of my career. keeping that in mind, tell me WHY I am required to take BIOLOGY to earn my degree? when I was first told by my advisor I needed to take biology to knock off one of my sciences I was like "oh okay cool, I took it my freshman year of high school, no big deal". 

this. class. has. destroyed. me. I shite yall not, I genuinely have nightmares about this class. i've had at least three so far, I wake up in a sweat. the work is just never ending. the smart books, the case studies, the take-home quizzes, the planning forms, the THREE HOUR LONG LAB THAT MEETS ONCE A WEEK? its too much. its just too much. I have a case study tomorrow, dont understand a dam thing. I might cry right now just thinking about it. my lab group despises me because I cannot contribute. like sorry guys, I try to understand. to me, it's just like trying to read Chinese. I cannot grasp a single concept. 

to biology majors right now, I do not envy y'all one bit. It's actually quite humorous because I have my education major math class right after bio on Tuesdays and Thursdays and we talk about the differences between squares and rectangles. 

so yes, wish a poor girl luck tomorrow. loggin off to get a tiny bit more studying in, then hitting the hay. xoxo