i feel like slenderman now nd i dont think im that tall

We went shopping today. I skipped the last hour of school because I was feeling like shit. As we walked through the aisles, I started getting kind of hungry and was tempted to go to the food section. But since I was already at the arts and crafts aisle, I thought, “Well, food won’t get me any grades at school,” and I really needed those supplies, so I just waited until we got home.

My mom called me over, debating whether to buy something. (I think it was soap) Then she suddenly said, “Oh, wrongbl3nder, I’m so glad you didn’t take that vaccine.”

I was like, huh? what vaccine?

She said, “The one the doctors suggested when you were eight. They said you were too tall for your age, and that vaccine would’ve stopped you from growing.”

My face said it all what the fuck? That’s an actual thing?

She goes, “Yeah!”

I said, “Wow, that’s weird. Sounds like they’re making vaccines for anything now.”

(I was 1m65 at 12)

Now I’m 19 and 1m72 , and remembering how people used to say I was “too tall” always made me self-conscious. Comments like, “Whoa, you have such long fingers,” or “You have beautiful long legs,” or me being the one taking selfies because my arms are long. I don’t really mind those. But I remember my ex once looking funny at my hands, and that made me wonder why I didn’t just take that vaccine. It made me feel kind of inhuman.

But he was small, so whatever. Still, sometimes I catch myself staring at my own features and overthink 'em.

At the same time, I’m grateful that I’m able-bodied, so I don’t think I should make it that deep. People probably focus on my features the same way they focus on their own.

Anyway, just needed to vent. The November effect is already getting to me.