blog #7 -- zine17 beginnings? maybe?

hi. i'm at work again. my head hurts, i'm off in an hour and change, i have to teach a bass lesson to a little girl at 6, tanner won't be home till 9, i'm kind of hungry, etc etc.

last night, tanner and i watched the documentary about kathleen hanna (i've been teaching him riot grrl history and the importance of feminism in punk) and he was enthralled. he was so interested and had such a newfound appreciation and respect for the girls of the third wave and it made me so happy. it also reminded me of who i used to be, before i had to give up my joys in favor of survival (desk job wahh wahh). i was a protesting, zine-making, song writing, bass playing loud girl who took action on her beliefs. what happened?

i wanna start something new again. there's a protest on saturday in seattle, and i want to pass out zines to girls there and see if anyone bites. my main idea is a recreation of zines like jigsaw and bikini kill, whose widespread reach and popularity brought countless girls together and made way for the riot grrl zine/movement. i really liked what kathleen had to say about riot grrl: that it was the name of a network, where girls could write their own manifestos and pieces on wat they individually believed, all under the riot grrl name. 

i want to create a space where girls can express their thoughts and ideas, find other girls who believed similarly, discourse with girls who don't, and learn and grow together as a unit. i think america needs girl punk now more than ever. i'm ready to be hated, ready to be laughed at, ready for whatever the fuck the trumpie boys have to say. i just want mobilization of ideas. i want girls to stand up and take control of the narratives surrounding them. i want girls to realize that they are an unstoppable force, an invaluable asset to the world, and capable of real, actual change. i want girls to know that they are what they are, not whatever the church declares they should be. i want girls to have a space to speak loud, scream if they wanna, and express themselves the natural way, not the way the world prefers. i want a girls only space.

anyways, i don't work on friday so if i try hard enough, i could have a zine together and copies ready to hand out at the protest. i'm also hoping i will have a spacehey page made up in time to direct girls to, because it's so much easier to cast a big net when i have the help of the internet. i love spacehey as a platform and think it would work out great. idk. hopefully i can have something thrown together by saturday. wish me luck!