idk. i want to... find someone

" It's too peaceful... " 

You quietly mumble to yourself while walking on the sidewalks, but isn't this what you wanted? Only the sounds of vehicles passing by and people can be heard to fill your mind and drown in your thoughts so that it won't resurface thus you can ignore it.?
For your mouth to be closed shut and wandering eyes just boring out on different buildings?

You question yourself too much.

Unfortunately, addressing the elephant in your mindspace distracted you and caused the mouth to go off, unsupervised.

Muttering curses, whats' and whoas' come out. 

Now you've done it. It's no longer distracted and your heart panics thinking its the end of the world.

Lending time for a long, silent, quiet walk now feels like an unneeded sacrifice. Silently dreading your whole life choices, the idea of spending fare money you told yourself would be reserved for a sweet treat seems a better option instead of tiring yourself. The idea of spending your time straining your eyes on a computer screen appears to be your idea of paradise right now.

You gave in. Screw a peaceful walk with no tedious internal monologue. That is now a distant, unattainable dream of a fool man. 

Today, nothing happened. As usual.
You agonize at the thought of spending your college days like this... Alone and quiet.

How unfortunate.
You wonder if you're going to die walking or alone, in a silent vacuumed room where only sounds from a game can be heard.

You wonder if this would stem some issues in the future... you hope not.

It does.