is anyone else deathly embarrassed of someone you know coming over to your house

i have already been in some of my classmates' place and i can see how different my house is compared to theirs.... there's clearly something missing in mine. like our dining table isn't even an actual table?! it's two wooden box stacked and there's a pallet covered in cloth on top of it.... and we have a whole ass room that is completely empty besides some cardboad boxes filled with religious books and a mirror sitting in the corner, and that kinda pisses me off because i SHARE a room with my little sister... couldn't she just sleep there?! 

and beds.... they have such large beds which kind of makes me ashamed too because mine is so slim and whenever i lay down my toes are kind of just "peeking out" if that makes sense. it just feels too much big even though they are probably reasonable bed sizes for a teen. i've had the same bed size since i was 9. plus my bedroom is so basic while the bedroom of my classmates and friends are so full of fun stuff and i feel a bit jealous at that.

anyway probably no one is gonna read this so i'm gonna stop writing now