I haven't had a clear thought in days... (Technology and enlightenment). And.. shifting.

Like the title says, I haven't had a clear thought in days. Up until just now I have been experiencing a sort of blurry stack of thoughts, begging and trying to connect. It is not like I have been scrolling on tik tok non stop for the past 4 days, because I haven't. I have been sleeping, getting up, going out with my friends, staring at things, and in the past few hours, I've been trying to finish an essay. 

I feel as if ill never be. I have always felt like I existed as a sort of predetermined set of scenes. Like a film roll?? I'm not sure how to describe it. Everyone has technology everyone has become practically a cyborg– I'm serious. Do you understand?

I have dreams and a clear set out goal. It's a sort of our of this world fictional life but I know it will be more real that whatever the hell we are experiencing right here. The collective idea is so lost it is a fuzzy existence for you all now, right?

I'm not even remotely here right now but I know of all the mental disorder– you can keep calling it that– but when will it be time to actually do something and make the most of what these people with "mental disorders" actually believe in?? What if there is something grander. 

I have been trying to write my dreams down recently I think I can use those as a sort of gateway. Someone was explaining their experience with dreams (which at first I did not believe as they told me they have experienced months in dreams alone) and I thought over time what if its true, what if I can work with my dreams to achieve something so much more that this 3d block of nothingness. This 3d existence that you are reading this on is meaningless but what if you can genuinely make meaning appear with the snap of your fingers– a LITERAL snap?

Do you remember the "tikt ok shifting trend"? This is what I'm talking about. There is something deep hidden inside this that you all skipped over. This is what I'm writing about. This is what it all comes down to. And you are not in the right timeline or life if you just up and ignored it or gave up. You will be stuck here forever. Is that really what you want? 

I will experince what I set my mind to, no matter how much the modern world tries to leech in my brain and slowly kill me I will rise mighty.