I'm back 2 square 1

I rlly don't get it.. I wish I wasn't too sweet or hyper aware of everything abt ppl I wanna b ok when someone doesn't text and b ok when no one talks to me

but it's not that ez.. everyone has their own problems that r bigger than me and I can't blame them like at all idk how to keep friends bc they come and go

it feels like everyone stays with me bc I want them 2 and it's hard to believe when someone says I'm a nice person like- theres better ppl who r nice?? Like why me? If that's all u hv 2 say abt me there no reason u need me at all..

plus it's not like I believe them anyways ppl pity me a lot and know how that feels :( when someone rlly likes me they try not 2 cross boundaries & I luv that but.. it's pretty simple I js wanna feel luved and I wanna connect w emotions a lot..

it's a lot 2 ask.. but again I'm a walking emotional baggage aren't I..?