two years

i spent two years of my life slowly building myself into someone that maybe---MAYBE---you'd consider. that maybe you'd learn to love.

who am i now? who have i become? do i love the self that I've manufactured or do I need to change again? i hope it isn't the latter.

I tried to be like you, and I love you, so I guess I love the self that I am now. 

but i will have doubts. and they will linger.

hopefully not for long.

i love you as much as you hate me.

"don't play a game you can't win."