Venting, weird feelings

Sometimes I’m just not sure of what I’m feeling, it’s like I’m upset or like I’m feeling left out from something, and that I’m I’m a bit of a void that’s hard to come out of.

Feeling this way is somewhat new, I mean I’ve felt depressed for a really long time and in several “densities”, but feeling like you don’t wanna do anything at all for no apparent reason is just really weird; maybe something is going on with me, maybe I’m just mentally exhausted from the gray and monotone routine I have, or maybe it’s the people I’m around that ended up making me feel this way.

It’s all complicated and somewhat miserable, to feel like there’s always something going on but that you never understand it, or even understand yourself in the first place. Maybe it’s just a teenage thing, I mean I just recently turned 16 and maybe that’s just how things go, but I’ve been feeling this way for a couple months.

It’s almost like I wanna let melancholy take over me, lock myself in my room and not do absolutely anything for Lord knows how long, maybe something’s wrong with me, maybe I’m fine… guess I’ll never know, I don’t care enough to try and find out, I’ll just keep on living my days until something magically changes.