Getting a Job or into student organizations is a humiliation ritual

OMG getting into a student organization is so hard, they are so picky and it just feels like a popularity contest for university. I mean I'll be honest I don't have much experience but at least gimme a chance. 

I feel so pathetic cause I'm a junior and I have no internships, no experience etc. I was a transfer student and the second I started at my adult big girl woman university I felt so stupid. I go to call outs and what not but my resume is so blank a cockroach would think they were on the salt plains if they sat on it. ENGINEERING IS SO ANNOYING.

Sometimes I really wanna shut my mind off and I just pretend that everything will be okay and I'm not a stupid failure. AHHHHHHH