Anarchisms turn to Nihilism (and why this is good)

Looking at Nihilisms origins that have been far removed from it's public perception today; it is easy to see the correlation with Anarchist attitude. Starting out as a revolutionary movement in Russia, Nihilists were self-described women "who respect nothing." women who saw the institutions, morals, religion and philosophy of their conditions as meaningless; unlike common conceptions of Nihilism today, they did not really see all ethics and life as pointless. Nihilists triumphed individual view and purpose differing from their Socialist radical contemporaries of the time and after a slew of assassinations, attempted assassinations and a large-scale arson in 1862; they were dubbed as political terrorists and of "a doctrine of violent crime." 

Many Anarchists you may have met have probably adopted these ideas without realizing their Nihilist origins; but why not go the whole mile?

In a world with an increasingly bleak future and a sabotaged and powerless proletariat; The great big suicide machine called Capitalism will poison, steal, and kill us until it's greed boils the planet over. The promises of Socialism seem so far away and many leftists are complicit in their own murder and other leftists now sneer at the topic of "revolution". Do we accept the end? Do we go quietly as any chance of genuine change falls behind the human race?

Many people, Anarchists and far less radical proles alike, have already fallen to a nihilistic and apathetic attitude towards a true liberated, egalitarian future and simply go through the motions of Capitalist life. There is not much to gain from submitting and progressing through a failing system of domination, especially whenever the boiling point is in clear view. Nihilism will force us to grasp the realities of Capitalism and the oncoming climate disaster but we need to look back to revolutionary Russia and use this attitude for something real. Nihilism is not just about the realization that nothing matters; it is that realization and what you choose to do with it. Most people seem to throw away the strength that Nihilism could give them.

Anarcho-Nihilists of today carry with them the strong and revolutionary attitude that even if the struggle is fruitless in the face of oblivion, there is beauty and joy in any struggle at all. Even though I no longer consider myself an Anarchist, to me this attitude and recontextualization of the Nihilist views I've held with me for years now is incredibly empowering in a way I never thought was possible. It sees the end coming and chooses to let it give them strength rather then depress them and that is something I truly believe any revolutionary or average person needs to sit with.

lousy essay but i wanted to write about it