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my birthday is in a few hours and i just cant help but feel sad.
today was teachers day, and i went back to my previous school to greet the teachers and hang out with my ‘friends’…. except i basically had no friends there. the one friend i had didnt go and it just made me realize; i was lonely. i barely had any friends. its always been like this, i should be used to it, right?
i also observed that everybody there had matured and they all became better looking—i looked the same, same ol’ me, physically and mentally—a fat stupid girl. furthermore, i saw my ex—he didnt looked to surprised to see me. perhaps because it was just a ‘primary school girlfriend’ and i meant nothing to him, or maybe it was because i hadnt changed much, and so it was like ‘oh, its just this girl’
overall i just felt really bad today and i still do i just cant help but hate myself for it my birthday is in 3 hours and i just predict that ill be bawling my eyes out.
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somi
happy birthday!! no matter what self-deprecation is never the answer. don't be too hard on yourself. change doesn't come easy to everyone and it's not something you even have to do. you have to let go of the past and see to the future. it's never wrong to want to stay where you are but if you are you have to become to content with it, let it properly soak in your bones. If not, then something needs to be done.
piss dude -.-
hey happy birthday i hope its a good one despite this hiccup
changeing shouldnt have anything to do with looks, i mean ya looks obv change but thats not importent. but if thats u in ur pfp i think ur gorgeos btw. and fat isnt ugly or bad (ik most of society dont agree unfortunetly but i mean it, fat isnt bad or anything to be ashamed of) so even if u are fat who cares?! ur fucken beautiful!!!
change is good and it is allways happening so its best to go with it. dont dwell on the past, focus on the now and look to the future. we can use the past to make better decisians now but dwelling on it wont help anything u know? u got alot of life ahead of u and you can make it epic
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First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
And i don't really know cause my birthdays were all with only my parents and sometimes with my older sister or other family members except friends cause istg one time i ingited all my friends to my birthday and? No one came.. Everything depends on you tho cause to me it's a very normal thing being alone in birthdays but maybe you can chat to your friends and remind them of your birthday? Or when you get to talk with them some other day, ask them why they didn't came to your birthday.
But don't lose hope! Maybe they'll actually give you a late birthday present! But just to be clear. If they didn't came or do anything for your birthday, it doesn't mwaan that they don't care about you.