seeing my crush in 4 days after not seeing him for 2 whole months

so school is starting in 4 days and even tho for us the first day is literally just 15 min and we only grab our new books it still means im gonna see him again in class and im lwk so excited both positively and negatively omg i cant i dont wanna be super awkward around him but cmon how am i supposed to react to my crush after almost 3 months of summer break?? im such a loser i wanna rip my hair out i probably dont even have a chance with this guy and yet im still writing stupid blogs about him