Confusion??? wth am I

Im a bit confused when it comes to labeling my gender, not cuz idk what I want but because its a bit complicated. 

For context, Im biologically female and until about a week or two ago, was a trans male tho recently Ive been questioning myself. When I think about being a woman, Id only ever want to be seen as a nurturing maternal figure. I hate girly girl things and modern femininity as well as being seen as a female however Id love to be a mother someday but thats not for ideally another 2 decades. Similarly, I only can see myself as a femboy or metal head...Any other kind of guy icks me out honestly. These feelings like to fluctuate especially around different people. I take on being fem when around crushes/ people I feel strongly for but remain masculine with everyone else. Ive thought about being male for now and just adjusting later on when I become a wife and mother but others say theres no point in being a boy now if Ill just end up being a girl later. I dont disagree nor agree with that but it does upset me. 

Does anyone feel similarly or know a label this fits? Ive questioned maybe genderfluid but most people I know wont accept that answer. If you have any advice or questions, Im completely open just pls dont hate.