blog #6 -- long time no see

hi spacehey!! i missed you!!!

time for an update. i'm currently 20 years old, sitting at my desk at my receptionist job. i work at my step dad's chiropractic office in kirkland, which is basically seattle if you really believe. oh yeah, remember that boyfriend my mom had? he's proposing to her this weekend. i live in his house. pretty crazy stuff. 

i also live with my boyfriend (I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW!!!) AND IT'S THE MOST AWESOME THING IN THE WORLD. oops i left my caps on. whatever. i am no longer floating around getting caught in the web of whoever needed entertainment. i'm actually important to someone. i didn't realize i could be. he's the greatest thing in the world. he treats me like i hung the moon. he wants me even when my legs won't open. he likes when i talk (which i do quite a lot) and all my weird interests and the way i look. it's pretty crazy.

i've spent the last hour looking back and cringing at old blog posts. i was really going through it, huh? i also edited out all the typos and got rid of some place names and stuff that were a little too specific, even if i don't live there anymore. it just made me feel better.

oh yeah, i dropped out of school. just couldn't afford it. i had to pack up, leave my apartment and cat and best friends on earth and hockey and life and brand new boyfriend and crawl to belfair, where my mom was renting a house, and rot in bed for a few months. it was hard to come to grips with my failures. i lost my license, i had no job and no money, and i was now alone in an empty house in a town i knew nothing of. sucked to suck for real. 

but, i got through. tanner drove 4 hours one-way to see me dozens of times, staying with me as long as he could, and treating me like a princess the whole time. nat and ally came down to see me, and i went up to see them when i could. the three of them never let me be left behind. nat and ally have never let that happen. they've been holding on to me and keeping me in their current since we were 12, and there just aren't words to say how much that means to me. i'm truly a lucky girl.

my dad has moved out of the camping trailer into a HOUSE (!!!!) and is now engaged, my brother likes me now, my sister is mentally well and in a happy healthy relationship, and has just moved into her new apartment with peter and got a kitten named mushu (what she's always wanted), and my mom is happily in love, works a high paying job and is about to get engaged. tanner is out of a stressful situation, living with me now, and has his second interview for a job today in bellevue. everyone is moving up in the world and finding true success and happiness. if everyone else is doing it, why can't i?

also: today is savanna's birthday. happy birthday savanna!!!!