Relationships are getting to me :P

guys, relationships are great and all. I've been in a couple and then get heartbroken 💔 if you know me irl, I be getting envious about couples being together, but deep down I'm happy for them for finding their person yk? I swear, does anyone else feel like that too???? I know we all want our person, but guys, maybe we do wait and wait. Waiting for someone may work or not, and so if it doesn't, move on. Love takes lots of time, and I wanna take it slow :D

I've realized I move too fast in a relationship and I wanna do irl. Embarrassing as it is, I've done a lot of e-dating on discord and that really doesn't work out lmao. Clown on me as much as u want idrc anymore, but now I wanna do in person dating. I wanna work with something different because I yearn so much to be seen and loved by someone. I feel like I have most things. I semi-like myself, I'm getting more positive, I've been taking my meds, I get decent grades, I embrace my cringe, and I have a caring family and friends. I'm nothing more than a hopeless romance...but lust always gets to me, and if we be real chat, lust is a big problem in 2025. And often, I feel disgusting for being lustful in most of my relationships. I used to be a big hopeless romantic and not think about the dirty things but in my recent ones, we'd send to each other and that was mainly the big things we'd do. I could count more pictures I sent to him than we've been on a date. We only went on a date once online. I just wanna experience something. Something where lust doesn't take over my filthy head. I just wanna experience holding someone's hand, cuddling, saying "I love you"'s to each other's face, and going on a date. I'm pretty young, so I do have a lot to explore and never give up because if gravity can pull apples off a tree, you can pull a bad bih too!! 

XOXO Heb