Blog Entry 8 Taking off for a bit Nove 17th 2006

so… i think i’m gonna disappear for a while.

not from here, just from here. the city. denver’s been feeling too small lately, like the walls are closer than they used to be.

i keep catching glimpses of her.

not just at the bus stop anymore. in places that don’t make sense—outside my building late at night, in the parking lot at king soopers again, even across from hot topic at the mall last weekend.

she never says anything, just watches.

and every time i notice, she’s already halfway gone.

i’m heading up to my family’s cabin in the mountains for a bit. it’s nothing fancy—just wood panels, a beat-up couch, and the smell of pine that never goes away. but it’s quiet, and i need that. maybe some space will finally put an end to this.

still… when i packed earlier, i couldn’t shake the feeling i was being watched.

like she already knows where i’m going.

i hope that’s just me getting in my own head.

i’ll bring my guitar and some notebooks. maybe this time away will finally give me the chance to actually write something that feels like more than scribbles.

— james ♥

Any ideas help.

there's something not right with this I don't know what's going on i don't know

if I need to be scared or if I'm just freaking myself out.