styles, fashion & suffering

When I was a little kid I was a cute blue eyed curly hair girly girl, I loved, and I mean LOVED cute poofy princess dresses and wore them every day because I was like, 3 years old and it was cute like yeaaa you are a pretty princess yaay 

and it, of course, wasnt that normal cuz i wore dresses which should've been worn only for special events, no one cared about what I wear tho so there I won

but still, I think at that time it was a beginning of me developing a more alternative fashion style

I was a quet no friends no life kid and I basically dressed in whatever I want and I loved owls, which was an important thing in my style.

When I was a toddler I had cute curly hair, before I gave myself a haircut and my hair became straight and thick. And it was THICK I mean I suffered every morning before school with my mom braiding my hair, and hairdressers were like "I'm going to go to war for this hair" uh..... And it all also came with those hairdressers not giving me the hairstyles I wanted because "you're gonna ruin your hair" WELL JOKES ON YOU HAIRDRESSER LADY I RUINED IT YEARS LATER WITH DYING IT WAY TOO MUCH YOU CANT STOP ME NOW 

and so I was just a kid before I turned 11 or 12 I can't remember what year fucked up my life, and so I turned out to be really into one specific Russian rock band and it became a beginning of the end, I gave myself a bowl cut and I my fashion sense fucked up as I developed my style (I wore anime tees fully serious.....)

and years later, I am what I am now, so cool, awkward alt style is behind me

and yknow what?? I'm grateful I've had wonky style before society in my country became more evil

I must admit, my style influenced my little siblings very much, my little brother is walking around with long hair (WHICH HE DOESNT TAKE CARE OF!!!), my litthe sister (best kid ever I love her) loves pastel goths and wants to be a pastel goth, and my baby brother.... I'll say he has a couple of band tees and he's silly

and I know my little brother will take a couple of comments for his hair, he can take it, he's a boy with long hair in Russia bro will survive.. Somehow

But my little sister, sweetest soul ever, she tries to dress pastel goth like and she loves cute but creepy things (as she herself said to me), but when she goes out other kids are like "uhm.. Why are you dressed like that, are you a pick me or something?" WELL YOU'RE GONNA PICK THAT FIST IN YOUR FACE fuck off of girls who actually dress cute.. I dont understand this crap with kids calling anything pink and cute "pick me", like.. Excuse people with actual style that they don't do the beige mess

for anyone who came there expecting something good, I'm sorry its just a fashion and styles rant I typed out while baking

thankx for reading this shit tho, in the end of my mindless thinking I came to the conclusion that no matter your style people will hate you, yaYY