X . * , SickneXX and depreXXion ->

Well itX day 1000 of being Xick ;p
Not really I think I have only been Xick-Xick for 5 dayX but it feelX like itX been longer ->
I have Xtill been able to do my Xtuff like take my medX and go to IOP and Xtuff but today, 
Today iX different -> miXXed my Xecond day of IOP, I juXt realized I havn;t been taking my medX in who knowX how long and even though in my envoirnment im doing good, two of the moXt important thingX that i need aren't -> My phyXical and mental->-> Defiantly not my phyXical->
I juXt had the cazieXt cough ever, ew-> If it wasn't for theXe factX that everything iX hurting me and my noXe iX Xhitting on its-Xelf and my throat iX juXt->->->AAHGGGG If I juXt waXn't sick ->


Well, Enough about that, I alXo wanna talk about my MedX and how I am doing Xo I don't relapeX today -> And yeX relapeX can happen Xo faXt eXpecially when you are impulXive -> Xo itX not entirely my depreXXion but when all theXe other thingX are effected ugh it can get to me ->
But that'X th thing iXn't it-> I feel I have been doing Xo well -> I think that'X becauXe I have foggy mind and head empty right now due to being Xick but When that XtopX->-> I Xhould be taking my medX conXiXtently anyway-> My friend called me anX I forgot what i waX thinking about-> 
Train of thought haX craXhed->Exe 

I am now going to play Minecraft :3c