Fine shyt..

If I ever see fine shyt while in that state(ovulation)... I'm jumping at him and ripping his clothes off<3 sigh.. I'm so freaky God dammit, some1 lock me up. The feelings I have for this man r unholy. God damn, why does he have to me too old for me.. BY ONE YR TOO... I WAS SO SO CLOSE... anyway, I wish mpreg was a thing.. I wanna get him pregnant. So so so bad.. I want him to give birth to my baby. I need this man, gang. I crave him atp... "your like a drug to me, bella" ahh LMAO anyway.. to sum this all up, I am thirsty n desperate.

And the worst thing is.. the gang doesn't even disapprove even tho I have told them about the age gap(3 yrs) multiple times.. in fact, they even feed my delusions. None of them will humble me n say stuff like "he is too old for you" no.. I get stuff like "oh, he was def checking you out" and the thing is... HE WAS... I CAUGHT HIM AND HE GOT EMBARRASSED.. HE THINKS IM OLDER THAN I AM, THEY ALWAYS DO.. ONCE A 17 YR OLD REFUSED TO BELIEVE I WAS 14 AFTER HITTING ON ME.. so, fine shyt and friends keep feeding my delusions.. the only people that aren't r adults.. I fear they r catching onto me n my Lil crush.. they r keeping notes... I didn't even say anything, I asked my aunt who works w him a few questions n said it was bc I thought he was cool n liked his pants (truth btw) and was she was like "u can't date him" LIKE WHAT.. she is onto me, gang.. I asked about his name the first time, and the second time, i asked her if he was a meanie or chill (she said chill but also shy asf) wtf.. I NEVER SAID I LIKED HIM.. I do but shush.. is it bad that idc if he was checking me out nor do I find it weird... I'm js happy that he finds me attractive, #daddyissues #neglected ahh.. anyway, I need validation and need this man in my bed. I NEED him to give birth to my baby.. and the thing is.. it might be possible in the future.. 

I am into him.. there is a 65% maybe 70% chance that he likes me.. ALSO he definitely has either a bald spot or a reseeding hairline.. he is always wearing a beanie.. like boi, what u trying to hide? Js a theory tho..