PROUST QUESTIONNAIRE

1. WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS?

being surrounded by love and having full autonomy over myself (also the colour pink and sparkles!)

2. WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?

being forgotten after i die (and the dark...)

3. WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE IN YOURSELF?

i live too much in my own head, i constantly think about my future and then i can't focus on what's important right now. but, contrastingly, i can never make real plans for my future, unless the task or whatever is right in front of me and has immediate consequence, i cannot physically or mentally bring myself to care. (i had to look up what deplore meant!)

4. WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE IN OTHER PEOPLE?

wilful ignorance. when people choose to remain ignorant on important topics due to arrogance or out of fear of their ideologies being challenged. i also hate a lack of whimsy!!

5. WHICH LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST ADMIRE?

... i thought long... and i thought hard... but all i could think of... was your mom... but if she's off the table, i'd probably pick my old guide leader. i just can't put into words my gratitude for guide leaders creating a safe and fun environment for young girls to learn and make friends. (i'm ftm btw)

6. WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST EXTRAVAGANCE?

i'm unsure what this means, but i'm rich in a social aspect,. as in, i have great friends who i love like family.

7. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT STATE OF MIND?

my mental state is not great. i thought i was getting better but then it all went bad again, however, i'm yet to hit that same rock bottom again, but to be honest, i don't think i will ever reach that point again, and for that, i am grateful. my current state of mind is a place of great gratitude and hope. and sparkles.

8. WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER THE MOST OVERRATED VIRTUE?

being money driven. too much money can only ever lead to corruption and an overuse of power. in my humble opinion, if you spend your entire life with the sole ambition of getting rich, you'll never be properly fulfilled. you may have more money, but, as cliche as sounds, money cannot buy happiness. happiness comes with emotional connection and gratitude for the chance to see another day. money can come and go, but a solid connection with someone or something will remain true. not to sound like i'm trying to be deep or anything though lol

9. ON WHAT OCCASION DO YOU LIE?

when it's necessary.

10. WHAT DO YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE?

skin texture, height, the girliness, my dawgs, my ears, my smile, my chin and the gawd awful mole on my knee. (not trying to sound pick me)

11. WHAT LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST DESPISE?

HOW DO I PICK JUST ONE!?!?!?!?!?!??!!?!??!?

12. WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU MOST LIKE IN A MAN?

emotional maturity

13. WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU MOST LIKE IN A WOMAN?

emotional maturity

14. WHICH WORDS OR PHRASE DO YOU MOST OVERUSE?

stop, what the hell are you talking about

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15. WHAT OR WHO IS THE GREATEST LOVE OF YOUR LIFE?

it seems self centered to say myself, even though we've had a life long love affair, so i'll say... your mom

16. WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU HAPPIEST?

when i was a toddler, i had so little understanding of the world and who people really are... it was nice being ignorant. and i'm happiest within the sanctity of my own imagination

17. WHICH TALENT WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO HAVE?

dancing. i never stay still anyway

18. IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

my sex

19. WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT?

for a short while (like, only a whole year) i was off school because of my anxiety. i couldn't even think about leaving the house without having a panic attack, everyone thought i was going to fail school. but i went back and i've now finished school so.... probably that

20. IF YOU WERE TO DIE AND COME BACK AS A PERSON OR THING, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

i think i'd choose someone completely different from me now. different race, upbringing, everything, just to see what it's like

21. WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO LIVE?

somewhere where i can be loved and be safe

22. WHAT IS YOUR MOST TREASURED POSESSION?

my teddy that i've had since i was born. i still sleep with him in my arms at my big age of 16. (he's called Teddy)

23. WHAT DO YOU REGARD AS THE LOWEST DEPTHS OF MISERY?

to have no ambition, to have no emotional connection to anyone or anything

24. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE OCCUPATION?

like hobby? reading fanfiction and watching youtube... 

25. WHAT IS YOUR MOST MARKED CHARACTERISTIC?

i'm not sure i really have any... maybe my anxiety?

26. WHAT DO YOU VALUE MOST IN YOUR FRINEDS?

understanding and humour

27. WHO ARE YOUR FAVOURITE WRITERS?

jaquline wilson will always hold a special place in my heart

28. WHO IS YOUR HERO OF FICTION?

robin hood

29. WHICH HISTORICAL FIGURE DO YOU MOST IDENTIFY WITH? 

i'm unsure so i did an online quiz and i got queen victoria... and then i asked my friend if i reminded her of any... and she said none of them. who knows really? update: she said miku binder thomas jefferson!

30. WHO ARE YOU HEROES IN REAL LIFE?

noel fielding (mighty boosh era) is my fashion hero?

31. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE NAMES?

felix and valentina

32. WHAT IS IT THAT YOU MOST DISLIKE?

blind authority

33. WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST REGRET?

i don't really have regrets because i see each mistake as an opportunity to grow and learn. (i promise i'm not actually this sickening to talk to)

34. HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?

dramatically, for love

35. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

to gunpowder and pussy, live by one, die by the other, love the smell of both