future is scary and exciting

im very excited for the future, i am. leaving out every and anything political. im talking about my future specifically and anyone else who might relate.

what you do now can affect your future so much and it upsets me just as much, because i find grades are not an accurate representation of one's intelligence. I could have horrible math and science grades because of my learning disability or just because i do, but i can also have great history and english grades, but that isn't valued in a lot of careers or even just generally. and i hate it. and this is coming from someone with dyslexia in IB (international baccalaureate, educational program. wiki: International Baccalaureate - Wikipedia) 

but to achieve the future and career i want and dream about, i have to do so much now in the present as a child, and i find its too much! and even if its not enough or too much, it could also just be worth nothing! i can and will work hard my entire childhood just for me to not get the career and future i dream of once I reach adulthood. i can do everything right yet fail in the end.