so close yet so far 12/5/21

i fell asleep at a kind of normal time and woke up at 4 instead of 3 so i thought i'd have a reasonable day but i SLEPT THROUGH IT AGAIN im so upset. i didnt do anything interesting today i just watched youtube and a couple movies... i also changed my tumblr theme to be christmas-y

i just dont know what to do. i try to fix my sleep and then i cant get a handle on any routines. my mom told me she tried to wake me up today to go shopping and im SO UPSET that i missed it. that would have been the only fun thing i did today. im missing out on so much because of my stupid fucking sleep schedule

song of the day: one day by lovejoy for the 3rd day in a row