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the same script, different actors. theyre all the same, im so sorry for saying this, Saba. he let you down. you said he was the one. you convinced me so much of that. he's the same, Saba. he's not for me. i see that now. its just so hard, Saba. hard waking up every day wondering how we got here. hard pretending i don't notice the silence between us. everything changed too much in a way i can't hold it anymore. the faces change, the voices, promises betrayed. 

im tired. tired of starting over. tired of shrinking myself to fit their comfort. tired of hoping. tired of explaining. of pretending i don't care when i do. because i do. every damn time, Saba. every fucking time. this is the worst part, Saba. theyre all the same. he him they them her she. im done trying.