remission of sins

exactly one year ago, i left behind things that were not mine from the start, left someone, left a place, left feelings. i erased everything, and started over, with a new me.

after a year passed, i thought there would be no more feelings left or bad memories stored, til yesterday i saw the paper in ma room that i had not had time to throw away. n yapp, it felt like everything was playing back in one second, all the bad things i did, all the bad things I shouldn't have done. ma head felt like it was going to explode, ma heart was burning so much. ohh, god...why do u remind me of the things I've been trying to get rid of? til when do i have to keep remembering these disgusting things? may i ask for ur forgiveness?