I'm good at nothing

I really try to be great, but I'm always average. I think it's mostly because I try to do a lot of stuff, I can never focus in just one thing, everything is so interesting and I want to explore all that, but I become someone that's not skilled in anything special, just doing a bunch of thing that I'm still learning to do. That kinda sucks.

And still, I want to have more hobbies, I want to do even more stuff. Sure, I could just do watever I want and enjoy being okay at it, but I just wanted something more, you know?

I like writing, I do it, not really often, so it's bad in many ways, I would have to practice a lot more. The problem is that I'm ashamed of it, specially since I'm not great to excuse it. The same goes for drawing, I'm not ashamed of it, but since I don't' practice so much it's not the way I wanted it to be...

Those are things I can change, but it's hard since I have so many other stuff to thing about. I'm in highschool, I study in IFSC (Federal Institute of Education, Science and Technology of Santa Catarina), it's kind off really tough, wich is kinda good since I can brag it to my father's family, but it's not soo good being there. At least people are cool, I made a lot of friends there and even learnd how to talk to people there.

That means school takes a lot of time of my day, so I have less time to do what I really want, and I usually just use my free time to consume media (watch movies, read something, discover some new album).

I don't know what was my intention coming here to complain, but it was kinda good.