she took my heart, I think she took my soul

break ups are crazy man, I tell ya. strangers being strangers again. all that you've been building for months could fall apart with just 4 texts. now I feel empty, numb and in auto-pilot. all of this should've been just a 'what if' situation. she brought the inner child in me, and now it's all gone. I tried crying, but I haven't dropped a single tear yet.

I don't feel sad yet though. I feel somewhat a bittersweet feeling. The memories of her eyes slanting a bit as her lips showed her teeth in a smile make my heart warm, but knowing that won't be happening anymore it's hard to swallow.

I guess I just want to feel like myself again. Being with friends and listening to music gets me afloat now, but I feel like I'm just a shell of what I used to be. Everyone keeps asking me how do I feel, if I'm alright, and I'm like- dunno, ask me again in a couple of hours lol.

We were about to hit a year together. It happened on Monday, and right now would be the date. You just can't end a relationship like that, man! With 4 texts telling that you can't keep this on, and when I try to call ya a million times you don't answer any of them- and when you finally answer an hour later, you ask "what do you wanna talk about it"? Bitch is you smokin reefer? And the worst of it, it's that the reasons she gave me were "I just couldn't bear all the things that happened before". WELL, OF COURSE you CAN'T if you WRITE ON your damn notes app EVERY MISTAKE I MADE. I've learned from them, I apologized and tried to correct every single damage I made since then. But I guess you couldn't forgave me. Oh well, woe is me.

And that was the last rant. Now, gimme some 'Elephants' 'cause I fucking deserve it.