I'd like to practice bdsm with someone but i can't

Since i know two or more things about s3x i have to admit that the bdsm it's been my favorite thing, but in my country is strange to find people with those interests and to be honest i felt like shit because of that, and even when i've attempted to talk about this, the people just judge me because what i like to do when i'm fucking someone, and it make me feel frustated.

If you want to talk this kind of things it please me to hear you:3

(I'm pansexual if you want to know, and also the people have judge me bc of it XD)