I sometimes hate people around me. (obscene expressions)

The guys who are my friends here, this post does not apply to you, I am sure that you are all good here :3. My friend took offense at me again and I don't even understand why, I'm fucked up with life and all I'm reading is Till Lindemann's poetry collection, she deleted me from her art channel and blocked me from it, and all because I didn't read her fanfiction with her fucking characters, like this whore I fucked her up honestly, sometimes I want to fuck her to death because sometimes it's just impossible for an adequate person to imagine how annoying she is!! Because of her, we fucked up our fire in tiktok because she didn't reply to my messages there, well, what kind of fucking creature would you have to be not to reply to your friends on a video with Chiikawa? In her opinion, I'm always to blame for quarrels between us, apparently I'm such a fucked-up person that honey is smeared on me for swearing with friends, this ungrateful brute will regret that she even knew a person like me.