life

grade 9 is officially over

its really weird, like i vividly remember every single event happening as if it was hours ago. theres no way I just made it through an entire school year again, makes me wonder if time will pass this quick (or quicker) when im older

i also vivily remember writing a blog about the day before my competition around last april? yeah so guess what, im still performing the same shit tomorrow! i never really got around to promoting to black belt after so im still stuck on red belt

sometimes im downright terrified of death but sometimes i feel like if it were to take me now, id be okay with that

i dont really like having an existensial crisis at 14 but okay

omg my birthday is in like a week or two ill be turning 15

whattheshiiiitttttttt ive grown so much as a person, mind and body.

well i dont know how to end this blog now, maybe a few things im looking forward to

-my futureme letters

-school starts at 8am again! (it was 7am this year)

-competition (please get a medal hehe)

-grade 10 (abt to be the leaders of the jhs community, wtffffff HAHHA leaders apaka feelingera naman ng gnebabab ito)

so

whenever i think of death i think about the first law of thermodynamics

- energy cannot be created nor destroyed

we all just kinda

become one with eachother literally

kinda comforting to be everyone, everything till the second death - heat death of the universe