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I have a really bad English, sorry in advance
A year ago, I met someone so special that I don’t even know if I want to meet them again. We were really close, both liked each other romantically, but neither of us ever admitted it. But we kept getting closer and closer until, suddenly we separated by a conflict.
After the breakup, my heart was weighed down with guilt, even though neither of us had done anything wrong. It all happened so suddenly. And so, I lived with that feeling for a whole year. God didn't know, on a random Tuesday in February, they texted me.
We chat; the memories returned. That by far undoubted the happiest moment of 2025. But things didn’t turn out the way I had hoped. They admitted that they had liked me in the past but not right now. So, I told them about my feelings over the past few months. After a silence, we agreed not to talk about the past, only to focus on the present. Now, we are just friends.
We continue "friending", and they said in past months they have went through relationships all of them failed but one of them, not me, also texted them not long ago. They told me everything good about that failed relationship, my heart hurt a bit, but idk if I'm jealous or anything. The clock constantly ticks, time move, they relationship went well, and my ex chat with me less. I really upset but never hate and could never see them in any negative attitude. I decide to do the last thing, I admitted I still have feeling, but don't need to worry because I won't appear in their life again, I wished every best thing.
And the reason why I wrote this is because I texted them last week, aware that I'll become emotion dependent on their replies now. Im Limerence once again.
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Cassette
If you feel like you're going to be emotionally dependent on them, i suggest other things to put your emotion into so if anything happens you have better coping strategies. It's okay to feel the way you feel, and so much better when you understand why! I hope you can get through this! good luck out there man
Rylee
Ur not disgusting, I am so so sorry that u went through that
mioara
I'm so sorry you went thru that, it's really painful and you are by no means disgusting. I had a similar experience myself but everytime they ghosted me and I waited for them like a foolish dog waiting for its owner who will never return.
Papitasfritasinsanas123
You aint disgusting. I'm the ball of regret because now i want to stop talking English because of my parents
Kaos
i went through this too, but i never seen these kinda friendships(like one person loves other but the other dont) continue peacefully. mine didnt too. he was like a blood sucker for me and it was hard as hell. but when i cut off communication, i felt relaxed. after 2 years, im pretty fine. like other people in the comments said, you can find new people but i dont think its necessary, you can just chill alone too. just try to distract yourself. i hope the best for u
Same. I was raped by my bf, and I'm not sure if I'm fine, It's been about 7 months since then and I don't know what I feel like I'm just disgusted.
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I think u should go out more and meet new peoples(physically). U can also try to express urself more rather than keeping it to urself. Bcz this happend to me one time(not romantically) i hold onto those things alot like u but then i realized that i should just let go but keep the memories we made so whenever i think aout them i just feel happy
Hope u cope up with this
Thank you!!!
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kaleigh
I’m so sorry you went through that, just know things will get better.
Zenika
Yo. I’ll I gotta say is it gets better.
Marlon
i feel you. Went through almost the exact same situation, fucking hurts.