HELLO????

Okay so.. hear me out, a few days ago, I was at a friend’s house, we watched a few movies and she finally passed out. I stayed up like the night owl I am and decided to use the bathroom when it suddenly clicked to me, maybe I’m a dude??? A guy?? But there’s no way right?? 

I’ve lived my whole life basically as a woman, I show no signs of being a boy. I looked at myself in the mirror sweating. Suddenly I didn’t like having chest and it felt itchy to be dressed like a girl. 

I searched my bag with distraught, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?? And there I was, scared 4 my life right now, I played a few tunes trying to block out my thoughts (honorable mentions; For The First Time by Mac Demarco & Black Liner Run by She Wants Revenge :] didn’t work at all though)

I fear I’ve been having a full on crisis for days and the internet is not helping, I stole bandage and wore a shit ton of layered bras and tops. 

Last few fitz were atrocious unfort but thankfully I’m stuck @ home w my dogs (꒪̥̥﹏꒪̥̥ ). I don’t want to be this way because what will everyone think?? They won’t see me as an actual boy would they?? Or esp my gf, I’m sure she’d lose attraction if I tried coming out. 

if any1 could give advice that would be great