To those in my heart

My childhood best friend:

  We met around 10 years ago. Has it really been that long? Time passes fast. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I never answered your calls or spent that time playing Minecraft now. I can spend all the time in the world apologizing but it would never make it up to you. I miss you, I hope you’re doing well. I wish you would come back to town, your mom said you might move back right? A lot of stuff has changed. Maybe we could start over again. I still remember the day we met, you came up to me and asked to be friends. I was sitting alone playing with those plastic toys with velcro so you can pretend to cook. I remember throwing up on your shoe, sorry haha. You ran away in 1st grade I think it was and came to my house. I’m glad you didn’t get kidnapped. Anyway, I hope that you’re okay. I love you. You’ll be at my wedding, first on the list.

The one who stayed:

  Wow, friends since elementary and still going strong!! We have our arguments but no matter what it’s always been us. I love playing with you but we drifted a bit. Though, we have been getting closer and mending our friendship. I wish you wouldn’t have taken their side. I was really lonely last year, I wasn’t actually sick. I spent most of my year crying and having panic attacks because I was so scared to come to school and I told you how I felt but you never came. Now, we are doing okay; we’re there for each other. I just would wish maybe sometimes you would consider others feelings more. I can’t ask you to be someone else though. I love you.

My online friend:

  Hey, how are you doing? I don’t have much to say though so much happened between us. I’m sorry things ended the way they did. I found your old YouTube channel, do you ever check it? I lost your discord. I remember we would call all the time and we said we would move in together and have cats and stuff. I miss you, and I love you. I’m sorry.

Him:

  I hate you, I wish I was never on discord that day. You can say all you want that I said yes but you begged and begged if I said no. I was so scared of another person leaving me or something so what was I supposed to do?? I wonder how you’re doing now. Do you think about me? I wish I could go a day without thinking about what happened between us. You’re a horrible person and I hope you know that.

That person:

  We were close, I guess we are. I can’t help but feel like you abandoned me for him. It’s not your fault. I just wish that I wasn’t your second choice for once. Was I ever your first choice or was I just the only person that would talk to you at the time? I’m scared, I don’t want you to leave me. Please don’t leave me for him. You’re the only one I think I can trust. Maybe it’s over. I don’t know, something has been wrong with me and I think you of all people would understand the most what’s happening even though I don’t. I’d love to spend another day calling till the next day. I’ll cya around soon. I love you, don’t go.