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Disc: I'm not a native eng speaker (bad grammar and all), i only say whatever comes from my mind!

So uhh this is my first blog in this web and i feel so confused. Barely i tried to remember for what did i built this... and i guess it's only bcs i have nothing to do instead lol. Okay, so firstly first, I'm not associating myself on any social schedule. I'm not into student council, never try any sports bc I HATE IT... HONESTLY...

The only thing that i did before this was english club in my hs but i'm so done with it bc lots of tragic events that happened between me and the seniors (goddarn it)

Since I'm in hs, i feel like there's sm thing I had learn and unlearn. Pretty sad that sometimes I feel I have became less smarter than less year, only cs I have done lots of stupid things. Like yk, when I was in the jhs, I'm one of the top students, how cool is that... but now yea yk it all goes down like... yea... I FEEL SO USELESS IN THESE PAST YEARS. But what would i do? well i think this is a part of growing up. It doesn't mean that I feel okay w my downgrade, it's just that I feel like I've become closer to myself more than ever. I've done less crying than a few years before, I'm not having anxiety anymore, I am still the quite kid, but my silence didn't bother anyone and even myself any other more. Everything feels alr. This year I hope I won't overthink so bad just like i did other years before. I will love my soul, I won't force her doing anything that isn't my thought nor my wanted. I will love her more than I love anything this whole world.

Yes, that's all prayer.

Ciao~