02.25.25 11:38 pm

Hi it’s also 12 am, wednesday that will tomorrow. 

just a dairy or an rant about my life. I want to gain a lover, an partner. perhaps a stalker, someone to watch over me, notice me at times notice i can not. maybe im not interesting enough, or my charisma isn’t that amazing for someone to stalk me fantasize me being their sweet beloved, cherishing their presence, feel romantic of their dooming over me. But to my luck i have interacted with no one in real life / school, it’s only online i ever come across people to kill my time with or burn bridges with no intention / care ness in their feelings. maybe i want a stalker is so i can feel noticed in this world, i have made my self invisible. i missed my 10th, 11th, and 12th class photos. lol im basically nonexistent, goes along with my name! 

during my class hours i been day dreaming or basically been heavily dissociated in my own world. where my persona traveled  through universes that i desire to satisfy my depressing life. playing genshin or just logging in to see Tartaglia and Neuvillette my beautiful wives, you know about them. i hate seeing ships about them, not really maybe im just jealous that im not in the picture. I have to see Furina, Scaramouche and Bennett be their partner, their beloved. It ticks me off, but i always find a solution. i just delusion myself into the drawing the ship art is made, same with other nevertheless like fanfics.

trigger warning sexual content below.

speaking of fanfics, i read this good william afton c reader fanfic before im going to bed. it’s 11 47 pm, gotta warp this up before i start to get 5 hours of sleep haha. the fanfic is good, im into it hard like hardcore hard baby. It was recently undated this month i believe otherwise if it wasn’t i would’ve found it updated like four pages later haha, its has seven chapters i only skipped some paragraphs at chapter 6~7 when Y/N was working at the pizzeria, im more touched with William processing the information that he’s a fictional character, how he knows his children will die by the hands of himself. but, what pissed me off was when we also got a sex scene of William using the vibrator on us for his side of the bargain. y/n’s adhd haha, bbutttt (again) overall i can’t wait for chapter 7, im soooo pumped to see how william will acted out since we didn’t know what he listened to/ watched while in chapter 5 after we slept we for 3 hours. okay goodnight!