Dreaming about being mute

Since i was 12 i've dreamed of being mute, of how many aspects of my life could've changed. I never liked being social, talking and hanging out, and some times i felt almost like forced to hang out with people, and when i got into a certain level, i started to unconciously yap to the person/people that i had next to, regretting it time later. I've always found a  certain interest about not being able to speak, especially in media where godlike characters were rapresented unable to speak or where mysterious children/teenagers didn't have interest inspeaking; and those characters were always targeted to me and became my favorites. 

I've often imagined the dynamic of how i'd became mute, and most of the times i had a car accident and broke my jaw, got really hurt at volleyball/PE and i became mute, or slowly, in about a month, my talking ability deceased until i wasn't able to speak anymore. In those scenbarios i was more mysterious and popular than i currently am, and if i got bullied, i didn't mind much because i (sadly) am a masochist and don't really care about physical pain, and i shomehow would enjoy it.

Briefly, one of my dreams as a child and now, is being mute, freely avoididng social interactions and and being a real life background character.