Just a lengthy ramble:

It is known that patterns are easy to pick up. It is also known that bias can blind the sequences of these patterns. So why is that such a complex concept to understand? Why can't awareness become self-awareness? Is it the embarrassment of ones ego being shattered at admittance to being wrong? What makes it so different with politics?

When I find the answer, I will get back to ya. But for now, I can type into this pixelated abyss and maybe lift a little weight off of my shoulders. So here goes nothing. The ramblings of a trans man who once almost de-transitioned at the cause of living in a MAGA home for a month under his first administration.

Before his first term, I found myself in a position where I was learning about myself, and gaining answers I didn't even know existed. And I came out as trans; well I should say I tried anyway.. because by the time I did, no one had taken me seriously, I was told I'd regret it, and everything else. School was hell, practically dropped out when he won, as you can assume, the school of mainly rednecks was in fact not friendly to the emo trans kid. Not in the slightest.

As I got off the bus, the Human Rights Campaign Page was removed from the White House website home page, and the article on workers rights for LGBTQIA+ Americans was removed from the Work and Labor website. That was his first 20 minutes in term. 

Shortly after, transgender Americans were banned from serving in the military. Including enlistment, continuing service, etc. Through out his first term, red states rode on that state-to-state ruling, that mainly kicked off after Roe v Wade and went from the right for a woman to choose, to the LGBTQ community. And it just got worse.

This man hasn't even been president for a week in this term, he has already ended birth right citizenship, invalidated trans people, and is looking to overturn gay marriage. 

I don't know why people sat there and believed him when his name is in that 900 page document over 300 times. All of his executive orders can literally be found in the first few pages of Project 2025. I am so mortified, I didn't even know that other countries are actively protesting for us at the moment? In all honesty, from the bottom of my soul, to the bottom of my split ends; thank you, but also I am fucking horrified because if we are so bad that other places are pushing pause on their own domestic issues to fight for the marginalized groups when we swear up and down that we let our citizens do what we want; THAT HAS TO BE SEEN AS AN UH OOOH??

As far as my state goes, I am hopeful that we will enact martial law against the orange mans orders, which is a fairly high shot since I am in a blue state. 

Truth of the matter is, I will not be working a normal public 9-5 even in a blue state, because most of the state itself as far as people goes had voted red. So I will be selling a variety of mushroom hats, handmade. This is how I will be supporting myself. I will be trying to make a link for my menu and what I have made, along with inventory. I am not the only one in this position, I have a friend on the opposite side of the states as me, and they make jewelry. So either way, if handmade goods would make you happy in this dumpster fire administration, shoot me a message.

This wasn't meant to be an ad, in all seriousness I'm typing what my brain is saying. And my brain says to try and self sustain at this point out of fear of public existence.

This man removed and rewrote the constitution. Adolf Hitler did the same in Germany. He did this so he would have grounds to take over the entire country of Germany under constitutional grounds due to the re-write. From his announcement of victory, to the first tragedy of Nazi Germany, it took Adolf just 53 days to completely crash the fuck out.

No one wants to believe how serious this man is and I'm mortified. I don't know what the fuck is going to happen, the state we will be in, if there will be war here at home? This isn't meant to be fear mongering; yet real concern on the fact of what my past in his first administration left me, and where his second term will leave me in the future. 

I know this platform will probably be sick of my ass by the time the four years has passed, but at this point, the second victory of this man has set me up to never shut the fuck up. I am so tired and winded from being a political ploy every four years because someone can't get Viagra.. Like I am so tired of sitting here thinking that there will be a moment in my life where my community won't be blamed for some outlandish shit, and I think I just need to realize that America is systematically racist, homophobic, transphobic, anti-sematic, and the citizens say they care about others but on a mass scale (shows with this election) they want to be the poster boy.

I know the majority of anyone who saw this blurt didn't get to the end of it, but if you did, thank you for reading this rant.