my identity on the internet as a whole. (A blog by me, Tony.)

Hai there, I'm Tony! I'm new around here.. sort of. New to SpaceHey, not new to being just another social media user you either somehow fw, or clearly strongly dislike.

It's yapping time..

I've not really gone by a new identity in a few years, well, long term anyways. Usually I think of some garbage name, make accounts, and never touch them again. But this time, it just feels different, yk? I might even log out of everything else and just go by Tony Abnormal for a bit on new accounts. I wanna be a new person.

I don't necessarily enjoy my past or the person I've become through said old identity. Every time I do something remotely related to this identity I just feel.. happy yk? As if I'm a whole new person with a clean slate. I ain't bringing ANYONE except maybe ONE person from the old alias with me, so it's kinda like a "clean slate" I guess. It's not that I hate those whom I've met, the one person I'll bring is my best online friend whom I've known since before I even switched to the previous alias. He's just very important to me, even if we've had a bit of a rocky past before.

Under my previous alias, I made Minecraft content, well, I still kinda do (seeing as I'm kinda rolling with the dual aliases right now. I made content that copied old Skeppy. Skeppy is a Minecraft YouTuber who became all cringe in 2021 and I missed his older content which is why I switched. Tbh I've stopped caring about Skeppy and Skeppy's old editing has just.. became my default, my "style" I guess. Idk what kind of videos I'll make now though. It's been a dream of mine ever since I was a little kid to be a content creator/youtuber of some kind. Getting positive comments/reception and seeing a bunch of people just watch my content and enjoy it has always brought me some joy

There are things I've spoken out under said alias that I said I've hated or strongly disliked. Admitting to suddenly not hating things like anime or things like regular ol cartoons bc most other people around me disliked them (and I used to be hella closed minded in terms of anime stuff, still kinda am, I dunno what to watch.. I'm scared :) (minus my best friend ofc) anymore and actually LIKING them has been has always been so embarrassing to me. Basically, some things I said I hated, I sort of.. no longer hate, and admitting that is embarrassing so ima just not do that on my main shit (this shit may become my main alias idk)

In recent times I've been kinda known for just being a big asshole, a big hater, and I just hate all of that about myself. I wanna be a new me, but my head ig wont let me. How I see myself is when I'm bored asf, my head kinda "fidgets" and I say stupid shit, hurt people's feelings, give myself a bad look, I just hate it yk, I wanna be a better person, a GOOD person, it's just hard. Sometimes idk how to be respectful or nice to people, I say stupid shit, and it's gg for me, people hate me, story of my life ladies and gents. I just wanna be cool with people, but idk that shit is just.. hard.

So, anyone around ages 16-19 wanna be friends? I play games like minecraft, clone hero/guitar hero sometimes, I love tech/computer stuff, late 90s/early 2000s computer aesthetics, older tech in general, analog type shit (I don't own a lot of old stuff tho.. I want more) (despite me having 2022 gaming laptop.. shhh), I like messing with FL Studio despite me having like.. no skill, can't make anything original. plus I like other shit I either forget about orrr idk. I can be awkward/weird asf. My current Discord username is "cheddeyy", might move to a new one soon idk.