not fitting anywhere

does anyone sometimes just . not fit anywhere? i wish i could fit in a subgroup of society, but its just so impossible ?? im too nerdy for cool people, too "other" for nerdy people, too "other" for OTHER people. i dont know who i am anymore, i just want to fit in, to have a community where i dont have to hide parts of me, a community where i can be myself fully, and to not be judged, but it just feels .. impossible ?? i think this has to do part with my recent almost constant derealisation moments, but im . not sure ,, still, i just wish i could properly fit somewhere ,, does anyone else have that feeling :(