i dont know

honestly ive been feeling terrible in an impostor syndrome typa way

the school is killing me slowly, not only me tho, i had two teachers leaving it because of the pressure and one tried to kys. i feel like im running towards a goal that keeps running from me too, i never meet my own expectations even tho people say im doing great, i know im not doing great. does my grades really matter if im not even learning ?

im not good in anything, i scratch the surface of everything i take a like and then drop it. it happens with music, happens with films, happens with programming, happens with blogging happens with my classes, happens with politics, happens with literally every new hobby i find.

i feel like im so much dumber than anyone else on earth and that im losing something that, i if i wasnt this way i wouldnt be losing.

i feel like a waste, but at the same time i know i have potential, and yet im unable to explore it like im stuck in an ending cycle of never having a  true passion for nothing and never getting deep into nothing

i dont know how to fix it

ts crazy but we vibing tho