Do you guys feel like this too?

friendships r rEALLY complicated...

Because you think you find the most amazing person on planet earth, and then just a few weeks later you discover this person has some very uncool opinions.

Like my friend, we're gonna call him Lemon cuz he sour. He's goth and emo, but he still buys from shein and says it's okay because he's broke... But we're studying in a private school and his mom is a doctor. He refuses to understand that fast fashion is bad and says I'M the poser for telling him that. Not to mention other opinions we disagree in. Our view of the world is entirely different.

And back in february I would've looked at him and said "woah, this is all I aspire to be". I used to look up to him. 

And I hate it when my friends are fighting each other. I have a friend group at school, and we're gonna call this new friend Candy, cuz he's sweet. Candy was like a dad to me, he's the kindest person everrr!! ^_^ 

But Lemon and Candy fought one day because Lemon was playing around and ruined Candy's handmade flowers he was gonna gift his girlfriend with. 

Then Lemon and Candy missed school and the air was kinda weird between them...

Then Candy stopped sitting with us at lunch. I miss Candy. I wish Lemon had never touched his flowers. 

Now there's a few new friends. Let's call them Coffee, Milkshake and Chocomilk.

Chocomilk also is like a dad to me, he's so cool C: 

Coffee is Milkshake's best friend. She likes the color green.

And Milkshake is also very cool, she likes the same game as I do!

Now there's a problem, cuz Coffee is calling Lemon hot and touching him as a joke but Lemon isn't quite comfortable with that. So the air is kinda thick between them too....

Get what I mean? My friends are in constant war with each other and mine and Lemon's opinions are too different. It's so tiring. 

I'm the youngest in the friend group. It's tough trying to connect with older people, it feels like I'm too childish for them and too adult for people my age. I don't have close friends in my grade. All the other girls in my class became friends as soon as they stepped in the classroom, but I took some time to adjust to the new people. 

In my class, I'm the closest to Bread! He's a cool guy. A gamer and an otaku, not an annoying one though, but we don't enjoy the same animes and games... We don't have lunch together, so we're only friends in class. 

I used to be kind of close with Pepper and Ice cream, but the teacher moved us and now we sit apart from each other. 

There's these 3 girls in my class, they're the tallest girls. I try to talk to them sometimes, but they're almost always talking about topics that I don't have interest in. They're cool though, and Jelly (one of the girls) calls me cute. Not in a romantic way. Friendly way. 

I can't make connections with the girls in my class because they don't take interest in the stuff I do. I like badminton, they like football. I like history, they HATE it. I like indie games, they don't play games at all. And it's hard to engage when you can't bond over stuff you enjoy.

I miss my elementary school friends. We're still friends, but we're not as close as we were back then. I do study with one elementary school friend of mine, but he found new friends and we got put in different classes. It isn't like we enjoyed the same stuff, but at least they would listen to me talk about my interests and we played in recess together. I kinda sound like Martha from Heathers LMAO

And my only friend that likes the same stuff as I do is slowly losing interest in them. She's also on her phone all the time and we don't have many conversations.

I wish I could meet up with internet friends or something, but I don't even have those cuz it's hard keeping up conversations through the internet. And they would probably be in another continent. 

I love my friends but sometimes it's just really hard for me to keep up with them. Does anyone else feel like this?? :(

(these names are all fictional if u couldn't tell!!)